Monday, February 16, 2015

Me

I am a strongly opinionated person.  I have a core set of standards and beliefs that will not be shaken.  I feel them in my very soul.  The most important thing in my life is my family.  The 5 of us.  A close second is my extended family, then friends, then work, and so on.  That is the physical world.  My God is all around me, in everything, and because God is everything, by holding my world in high esteem, and working towards being the best I can be, I worship him.  I have learned that everything I will ever go through in life, the good, and the bad, was given to me by God to help my spirit grow and to teach me the lessons my soul craves.  This makes me want to work hard to be an example for my sons.  To teach them by showing them, not by telling them.

We all have days we fail.  We all are hypocrites.  But the real lesson is to learn to not only say I'm sorry, but to change the behavior you're sorry for so it will not happen again.  To try your hardest to be the best you.  In my life, "I'm sorry" means I didn't mean to make you feel that way AND I will try my hardest not to do it again.

There will not be a day that will pass when I will not reflect on how I could have been better, to say "I love you" to those I love and say a prayer of thanksgiving for my blessings.

I am honest to a fault.  I can not lie.  I also am intuitive.  Don't even try lying to me, because chances are you will get caught.  Once you break my trust you will literally need to climb mountains to get it back.  Dishonesty and lies do not belong anywhere in my life.  I am real.  If you don't like that stay away.  I have nothing to hide, and I won't even try.

If I say I'll do something, it will be done.  If you need my help I'll be there in a second.  I rarely feel out of place because I am, rarely put in a place that I, myself, have not chosen to be in.  I dream big, because there is never a reason to not aim as high as possible.  It will always be hard for me to say "I want" or "I need", because there will always be someone that has something more important then what I want or need, and I am grateful for all I have already.

Yes, sometimes I can be bitchy or sarcastic, (That's me trying to get you to see reality, because chances are  you've done something really stupid...) but underneath that I assure you I'm warm and caring.  Usually, I need a little while for that side to show - maybe you're not worth my effort.  Or maybe you stand for everything I do not, in which case you don't belong in my life - and that's okay everyone does not need to be friends - just civil and gracious because we do share this planet.

I tend to study and learn and inform myself about everything that I feel is important.  Watch out if you disagree or have another opinion.  No I won't fight with you, but I would love to discuss it all and hear your side.  Heated debates are awesome.  Please try and change my mind.  Just make sure you can backup what you say.  One more thing, if a heated debate will make you mad or unfriendly, keep it to yourself.  Like I said, I don't want a fight, I want to expand my knowledge.

I believe that everyone was created equally, but due to individuality everyone should be treated fairly, not equally.  Equally means everyone should be exactly the same and do exactly the same.  That's not a place I want to live in.  Fairly means everyone should be treated according to what is morally right.  What is morally right, depends a great deal on the situation and where you are.  Meaning, something morally wrong here in America may be morally right in another country, or vice versa.  It depends on how you were raised.

I think that's all for now.  Thoughts are out.