Do it Differently

It's a hard fight.

We all know that feeling.  The one where your very heart hurts.  The one where the pain in your chest is crushing and almost unbearable.  The one that makes it hard to breath.  The one that no matter what your mind tells you, still send you crushing blow after crushing blow.  The one that makes you want to scream at God "Why?!"
Some of the most important lessons are the ones that bring us to our knees writhing in pain.  It hurts so badly but in the end you're a sparkling diamond.  I know this, you probably know it too, deep inside, but it sucks.
Which leads me to this....

It's true you know.  When you only focus on the good, you're all of a sudden hit with a wall of good.  Don't let the negatives pile up.  You are strong enough to fight them.  You are strong enough to fight the lies your emotions want to you to feel and you are courageous enough to feel the truth in your heart and soul.  Dig deep.  That's where the truth is.  It's a hard fight.  I know it all to well.  It can be done.  I will do it.

From Granny

Don't cry for me, though I be gone - a wish from eternity.
My love for you will always be, this I promise you.
Here I am, right in your heart, ever close to you I stay.
Our memories will help you through and bring many smiles to your face.
At times you need me, I'll be there, different but the same.
You'll hear my voice and feel me near whispering gently  in your ear.
Remember always I loved you so and only left because it was my time to go.
I'm happy here and my only regret is the tears I sometimes see flow.
Shine my sweet, unclench those teeth.  The best is yet to come.

If you want to see the sunshine, you have to weather the storm. (~ Frank Lane)

Infinity

When I sit & look at my life, I realize that no matter what is going on I have amazing forever love in my life.  The family & friends I have truly would stand the test of time and I am blessed beyond a shadow of any doubt. I have faith that the best is yet to come & no one can hold me down.  My future is amazing because of the support & love I have in my life.
Thank you Lord for the many blessings & lessons you have bestowed on me.  

Okay

It's right in front of you.  It's there - you may have to blink a couple times, and squint a little, but it's there.  The blessings.  The small little things that make the day better.  The memories that no matter what can make you smile.  Everything will be okay.