Breathe

I realized today that I catch myself holding my breath A LOT.

Teeth clench.

Almost in a trance.

Functioning fully, yet some where else completely.

Odd.

A little nerve wracking - okay maybe a little more than a little.

I seem to get sucked into my thoughts.

And to be honest, I've had A LOT to think about lately.

No anger.

No malice.

Just some big 'ol deep thoughts.

I find myself talking myself down.

"Take a deep breathe now, sweet stuff"

"This to shall pass"

"Will this matter tomorrow... next week... next year..."

"Let it go"

As I've said a million times emotions,

All that "feelings" mumbo jumbo, 

can try all they want to take over my conscientiousness -

but they never succeed.

Mind over matter.

Pure, simple truth.

Even.

If.

It's.

Scary.

Even if I don't want to believe it. 

Because I know that in the grande scheme of things, everything,

Literally everything,

Is meant to happen for a reason.

Our spirit knows exactly what that is,

And will never steer us wrong.

I have personally grown in leaps and bounds in the past few years.

I know it's worth it.

It's hard to remember all that sometimes though.

So hard to always remember.

That's okay, I promise!
It's the "human" curse. 

Try as we might,

It's inescapable.

So instead of fighting,

Fully release it.

Let it go.

Always realizing;

THIS TO SHALL PASS - the good AND the bad.

And the lesson will be learned even if it's months down the road.

Just remember to breathe through it all.

We got this.